DO OVER!

Have you ever yelled "Do Over!"  Well, I am frickin' yelling "DO OVER!".  I was doing well, eating not the best but, definitely working out and Whamo!  I get a couple of clients and all my plans turn to crap so I decide to blow the week of effort and pig out like a glutton.  Nice.  Yeah, I know.  Real nice.  So, I am going back to basics and I am gonna try harder this time.  I am positive and I am strong.  And, I just had to buy a pair of new shorts because my stomach makes me look pregant (and I don't think I missed out on much not carrying my son in my belly if the first stages looked like this!) and my old ones do not even fit.  I am disgusted with myself.  And yes, I realize that is a strong word but I am.

So to answer you question, why do I blog, I really don't know.  I have actually thought about already packing it in as it is just another thing on my to do list.  I am cautious on my blog because there is a part of me that is like Crap!  I know these people commenting!  Maybe they will think I am weird and insecure and at times too brazen.  Maybe they think totally different from me and will hold it against me.  I think I started this blog as an outlet.  AN outlet to write my stuff down and get it out of my brain.  A place to say yippee, look how my cute kid is, and I am vacationing here this time of year.  I really should start a diary but, my hand will get a cramp and at least I can password encrypt my blog if I please.  Maybe I blog so I can be held accountable?  Maybe I blog for the free psychological insight?  Who knows!  Maybe I just thought I would give it a try. 

To add onto my self depreciating bandwagon, I will also admit that I forgot a major birthday this year.  I truly am pretty upset about it and I do not have an excuse that will make up for it.  Hell, I don't even have a good enough gift to make up for it.  I made the belated phone call and the only good thing about it was that my dad does forgive.  It was his 60th birthday and I had even with it written in my daytimer, I still forgot to call.  Even my less responsible brother called to say Happy Birthday.  My girlfriend Julie, mentioned her birthday last night and even though it is written down I was still like Thank God she just said something.  I am the crappiest rememberer of important events.  Is that even a word?  Rememberer?  Anyway, I will try to be a little bit more positive, not so much Debbie Downer, but Charlene, NO you cannot have my old shorts.  I will, I VOW to fit into them.  And soon.  How in hell do people get anorexic?  Not to be ugly about a real disease but damn, I must have missed the will power gene somewhere.  Oh well.  More later.  I just had to look up a recipe for boiled eggs.  No laughing.    

Comments

[scrappermd]

OK, well now i know why we are friends, because every Easter, I have to look up the recipe for boiled eggs...no joke! And i usually get it wrong, in fact, Jon has become the egg boiler in the household! So keep blogging, because reading my thoughts coming out on your blog keeps me sane, and I love you and think you are terrific! In fact, I think you are hilarious and that is even better than terrific! and no one dies wishing they boiled a better egg! Karen

[cathy]

Now I don't feel so bad. I forgot to call my dad on his birthday this week too. I finally called him yesterday, and his birthday was Tuesday.

As far as "cheating" on your diet, you have to give yourself one day a week where you can eat whatever otherwise you will completely binge and blow your diet. Personally, I think that you look great.

I blog to vent at times, to share things with friends so I don't have to call everyone of you guys! I think that your blog is awesome. Don't stop. Use it as your diary, vent to us and we can help you through the bad days.

I don't know how people get anorexic. I am with you, I have no willpower gene either. I love yummy food.

[Charlene]

OK Patty Positive, now that I'm back in my chair and have gathered myself together enough to respond I think you underestimate the power of a great laugh (I'm sure I just burnt 15 calories...make that 20 it took two tries to stand up). You may blog to vent or ponder a few ideas but I think you blog to keep us entertained, now I'm not laughing at your determination, or short term memory loss...it's just you are a riot and that alone (least we forget your drop dead georgeous looks) negates any junk you may have put in your trunk lately. After all my dear you are a ROCKSTAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!